why is it that whenever i am prepared to trust someone they would betray my trust. they played and toyed with my kindness. haix. i cant help it anyway. wad to do if some are just like that. i noe u are happy and popular le but dun nid to always like that de rite. so since when have you do that with us. since when will u make such sacrifices. and u broke ur promise. nvm. maybe u are unaware. so i am not worth for u to be ur fren lahx. i noe u have more other better companions that u dun need us le. wadeva lahx. there is just simply no one i can trust.

why i so gullible! people gd to me i treat them gd but they are just using me. why must i be the use of others. pls lahx. want to ask questions or wad den come find me. den when i got question den the way u teach me is like so wad lahx. dun wan teach den say dun wan teach. dun wan tell me den just say lahx! why must fake. i just dun understand. the way u talk to me and tell me is like so unwilling. but i dun need false answers so dun anyhow fake it. i can also tell. i have brains. haix. i just always fall into others' trap. and when i realise its just too late. wad to do lehx.

why i cant have a control over my life. i want to do wad i want also cannot. things on one hand are getting better but on the other hand its getting worse. why. its like a balance that can never stay still. one side often drops down and disappoint me. so are some adults that they never think. are kids often wrong and are ur victims to be blamed? i really duno. i am lost now. for all i noe is i am not prepared to trust another.....

the whole world is spinning everything is falling and i am just on the forest floor alone.

sometimes the stars twinkle when we're together
and my lungs forget how to breathe
as you hold me close to you.
so we'll dance on this autumn night
twirling into eternal blissand out of the confusion.
the grass will be so cold on our backs
when we try to find our constellations;
they always twinkle.
your heart beats louder,
mine mimics the rhythm
and i know that i am safeif i lay beside you all night.
and when the sun rises
the stars will hide their faces
until we meet again
and its obvious that
you didnt see them twinkle
because i saw them in your eyes.

--taken from somewhere

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