black&pink

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

why? why is it that when i always want to suit someone they still bu shuang de. i am so shaken to noe the truth. ok so now i noe lahx. i duno wad to do le lahx. u think i have so many brains. why is it that wadever i do is wrong! u think u are the only one controlling? u noe i always din tell u my unhappiness just to not let u get upset lehx. and u see i control and resist so much yet this is how and wad u think about me. why is my mood always affected by this kinda things. so now i believe that hardly anyone is true. but i dun think i myself is either rite. hmm good point. i hardly blog about this kinda thing now is because i dun want to spoil ur life. but u made me do it. i am really loss and confused le. tell me then, wad to do. anyway i think u dun even read rite. yahx. end this? why must things end den will have happy ending. isnt there a thing as on going frenship? oh yah i forgot good endings only happen in fairy tales. u think u are the only one? oh please. i always trust someone too much and give in until i am like wad. nvm. i always thought that a fren would do that. and i really did that. but it is hard to maintain u noe. i ready tried so hard and my best to do it. u talk about it yeah but u treat me as invisible. u are like contradicting urself arent u. same wad. u can dun follow de mahx. if u are unhappy about my own plans den u can choose not to follow one rite. or u can voice out de. but u ownself dun want to say. and i noe wad u feel. i noe wad u thinking. but do u noe me?? u unhappy and pissed i also noe de. u noe how to understand that her parents dun allow etc why u cant understand me then. and please. i dun use u lahx. definitely not. i am tired of all these things le lahx. i am always tired anyway. wad is using people? i really DUNO!!!!!!!!!!!! ok ok i noe u would think that u are making yourself so pathetic but please. u are not at all lahx. look at the countless frens around u! i am trying to be contended myself so i will not ask for too much. but wad do i get in return? nvm. wad i get is no use de. its better to see wad others receive rite. i duno who is it that is bu shuang lorx. u can just say it out rite. why must humans always find our faults. i duno if i am a bore to anyone or not or whether if u will ever find out this. well, i noe u will come and hit my soft spot again. how to talk to someone who has no interest and no tym for that person. ok i will suit ur tym. u can still find me when u have troubles rite i will still try to help u de. i dun push people away do i? i hope i dun. well, i duno wad is the world about. i just want to maintain a positive me and bring goodness and make my frens smile bahx. the world is not revolving around just me so i should get that into my head. yeahs.

9:27 AM
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She's sixteen, born on the 24th day of june, and she has been through high school. Her last and maybe the most favourite years are spent in 3/4 Endurance in Presbyterian High School!
She was part of the guzheng ensemble too.

Currently in Anderson JC, 24/09.

Speaking of which, you may not know her well enough. She, like anybody and everybody else, wants to be appreciated and cared for. For further details, you may have to know her better. (x

One of her devilish craves i found out, is dark chocolate. She also loves her goddad and grandmother's cooking.

She is glad to have great friends like Amanda, Yeesin, and the ones in her clique - Wengsun, Rebecca, Jessica and Dew. Along with her friendly classmates who endured with her. =p Plus friends like Weilin, Jervis, Huiting and YOU!

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